five weeks...five days...

as per usual, i am horrible at keeping up with this blogging thing. but colin, this is for you, and i should really step it up, huh? it has now been one month and eleven days since you were born, and what a crazy trip it has been (and it's not even close to being over!). even tonight i am squeezing in this time to write a few words for you to look back on someday. (and maybe for people out there to also stay updated on all the events of your life. i promise in the next few days there will be pictures, and as time moves on, there will be plenty of videos and stories to share as well. for now, how about a quick update on your first month?

isn't it amazing that only a few hours after i wrote that first post, we were on our way to the hospital, and soon after we met you face to face for the first time? i still am completely blown away by how cognizant i was during those few hours (and also how hyped up i was on adrenaline!). after being whisked off to the icu for some breathing problems and monitored for about twenty-four hours or so, we were finally able to hold you in our arms in our own room, without all the wires and monitors hooked up to you. and on top of it all we were able to take you home in your first car ride outside of mommy's belly after only two days in the hospital.

once we were home you had a plethora of visitors (not to mention all the visitors in the hospital). many came to see you at home as well and many saw you for the first time. the next thursday (on your one week birthday) the home team came over and we had a blast.

the first month with you was truly awesome. while there were moments when you were crying and your mom and i looked at each other with no idea what else we could do, the moments when you were smiling in our arms completely made up for it. we have both completely fallen in love with your coos (and other crazy noises you make -- you must take after me on that end...) as well as all of your interesting facial expressions.

there hasn't been a moment yet when we've been scared at all, in fact quite the opposite is true. when i'm with you, colin, i feel incredibly confident, not just that i'm not going to drop you, but confident as a human being. it is incredible how God has designed us, so that i can have such a strong emotional connection to the thing (you!) that i had a part in creating. and the fact that in that aspect, i have fulfilled my life's purpose: to recreate. absolutely astounding.

like i promised there will be pictures over the next few days. i may even illustrate some of the events i've described in this post. i love you so much and can't wait to continue to watch you grow!